I call myself a recovering perfectionist. I adopted perfectionism as a coping mechanism to deal with the belief that I wasn’t good enough. Through that pattern of perfectionism I put so much pressure on myself to please, perform, perfect that my body broke down. I had chronic back issues and chronic headaches in my teenage years, my first (of many) burnouts when I was 18, and my first (and second) stroke when I was 24.
As a result of that stroke I had maybe about 10% of my energy left to spend each day. I needed a nap to get me through the day, even without a job or kids. Some days I needed to put a stool in my shower, because I couldn’t stand long enough to wash my hair.
After the stroke it because my full time (24/7) job to try and “heal”.
I knew in my gut that it was possible to get back to energy and vitality, and I fought like hell to regain something I could call “a life”. I commend my younger serf for trying so hard, but it was actually through that relentless “trying” that I never really got much traction and it felt me feeling defeated, discouraged, and depressed.

I put myself through several more burnouts to try and heal, until finally I came to realize that all this “trying” was the problem. That my patterns of perfectionism got me sick, and I was using those same mechanisms to try and heal.
It wasn’t until I found Law of Attraction and specifically the work of Abraham Hicks that I finally made significant progress. I doubled, and eventually quadrupled my energy by learning to feel good even when my body didn’t. By tuning to the frequency of what I wanted, rather than to try and get away from unwanted.
Then I hit a ceiling.

I kept spinning my wheels.

I was moving, having a life, enjoying myself, but I never got traction on the things that really mattered to me.

Then my intuition led me to resources that helped me regulate my nervous system. I manifested teachers and programs (like Primal Trust, and tools (like the Sedona Method) that helped me find the missing piece.

The missing piece?

I believed I was my true self, but I wasn’t. I was blinded by old beliefs, conditioned thinking, and other programmed patterns.
In order to truly set me free. I needed to step into authenticity. Express my truest self no matter what.
To me that led to me walking away from my marriage, a loving partner who had been by my side for 28 years. A man who treated me right, but ultimately wasn’t right for me.

I needed to learn to get out of my head, and live from my heart instead.
Follow my truest desires, no matter how scary the steps involved.
I needed to leave behind the familiar, in order to never again leave myself.
Embrace my perfectly imperfect self. Accept who I am, and where I am no matter what.

Express the truth of who I am, regardless of how other people might respond.
Expand into a life beyond limits, by tuning to the frequency of what I want, regardless of what my life looks like now.

All that led me to FEEL FREE WITHIN.